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Today's quote
Fall in LOVE or fall in HATE
get inspired or be depressed
ace a test or flunk a class
make babies or make art
TRUTH or LIE AND CHEAT
dance on tables or sit in the corner
LIFE is divine chaos. Embrace it
Forgive yourself . breath
And enjoy the ride..



MOVE ON
I'M DONE . I'M FUCKED UP
I'm so tired
with all of this bullshits
this is the end
i gotta move on
no , it's just a chapter in the past
i won't close the book
i'm just turn the page
cause i wanna end this shitty 'chapter' of my life
and start a new chapter WITHOUT you in it

ps.
you'll never find one like me
yo know why? no girls is stupid enough
to love you like i do
fuck you and goodbye

guys, do this to your girl . girls, find a man who would do this :)
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot
who calls you back when you hang up on him
who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep
wait for the boy who kisses your forehead
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats
who holds your hand in front of his friends
who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on
One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU...
and..

The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...

:))

smiling but broken inside
i'm the type of girl that can be so hurt
but can still look at you
and SMILE .
the type of girl who is willing to brighten your day
even if can't brighten my own

today's quote :)


i miss you
someone asked me if i missed you
i didn't asnwer . i just closed my eyes and walked away
then i whispered "so much".

:)


i'm gonna marry you someday



today's quotes!

and baby, don't ever forget,



stronger

I'M STRONGER NOW...
I'm no longer the girl
who laid her heart broken and bleeding at your feet
AND there are more , many more important things in my life now
than a man.



EAT THAT SHIT
ONE DAY YOU'RE GONNA WAKE UP AND REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU CARE ABOUT HER
AND WHEN THAT DAY COME, SHE'LL BE WALKING UP NEXT TO THE GUY WHO ALREADY KNEW

LOL!!


love-cycle


Have You?
Have you ever fallen in love,
but knew they did not care?
Have you ever felt like crying,
but you knew you'd get nowhere?
Have you ever watched them walk away..
not wanting them to go?
and whispered "I LOVE YOU" softly...
not wanting them to know?
You cried all night in misery
and almost went insane...
There's nothing in this world that causes so much pain
If I could choose between life and death,
i think I'd rather DIE
Love is fun,
but hurts too much
and the price you pay is high.
so i say, DON'T FALL IN LOVE
you'll be hurt before it's through
you see my friend i ought to know,
I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU.

a note for you


True Love
True love is when...
You shed a tear and still want him
It's when he ignores you, yet you still love him
It's when he loves another girl , but you still smile and say, "I'm happy for you."
When all you really want to do is cry...and cry

she and herself
she sits in her corner
singing herself to sleep
wrapped in all off the promises,
that no one seems to keep
she no longer cries to herself
no tear left to wash away
just diaries of empty pages
and feelings gone astray

cause everything is never as it seems
The girl who seemed unbreakable , BROKE

The girl who seemed so strong , CRUMBLED

The girl who always laughed it off , CRIED

and..

The girl who never stop trying , FINALLY GAVE UP

this is me
The shit you hear about me might be true
But then again , it could be as fake as the BITCH who TOLD YOU


cute pics



i'm not ready

I don't wanna be in love , for now
i'm not ready
i' not ready for another heartbreak
i'm sick of crying
i'm sick of trying
i'm sick of giving all my best but gain nothing for it
i'm sick of pretending
to give a super happy face but breaking inside
laughing so hard but screaming and crying inside

i DO prefer fall of a bridge . it probably hurt less than fall in love


i do like you, dear
i feel like i've found my soulmate
you give me butterfly in my tummy
cause i could be myself when i'm with you
you bring out the best in me
i miss you when you're not around
you are so unique
you have a 'fucking' good attitude
you have a funny accent
you often make shitty action
you swear a lot and joked a lot
you're so mean and so sweet at the same time
i do like you
but , i'm not ready
for another heartbreak
and i don't wanna lose another best freak friend
i'm sorry

cute poster


Today's quote II


"if there's 100 footsteps distance between us, just take one step closer , then i'll move 99 steps closer for you (: "

answer it ! LOL


this is so cute ! teehee


today's quotes


just remember , you're the one who let go...


back to that day....

After all we said, After all we shared, After all we loved, I still can't believe that you just threw me away, but you did.

please read the hidden message


i'm not ashamed
i'm not ashamed that i used to cut .
it made me feel better at that moment in time .
everytime i see my scars it reminds me of what i have been throgh and that i made it :)
when i could have easily givin up .
i think of it as my battle scars that i'm proud of .
and pround to be me .
and see that i never have to go back to that dark place ever again .

Today's quote II


dilema
i'ts never bad enough to just leave or give up
but it's never good enough to feel right.

maybe

maybe my heart didn't really skip a beat ,
maybe the twinkle in your eye was just the sun reflecting weird,
maybe the feeling in my stomach was not having enough for breakfast.
and maybe i just though it was LOVE...

today's quotes


what is heartbreak?

HEARTBREAK is lying on the bathroom floor,trying your damn hardest to breathe while at the same time wondering why it all went wrong and how you're gonna get up and pretend like everything is all right , and what the hell are you gonna do with the hole in you chest?
yeah, that's heartbreak .

the truth hurts , lies worse
i'm so speechless right now . maybe the picture below could explain what i feel


cute story
"Gue suka lu!""Gue suka lu!""Gue suka lu!" Ah itu lagi itu lagi yang diucapin gadis-gadis ke gue. Kenalin, gue Refan, terkenal sebagai preman sekolah. Banyak yang takut sama gue banyak juga yang kepincut sama gue. Pasti mereka cuma liat tampang gue aja dan gue nggak suka itu. Kebanyakan yang nembak gue ialah cewek-cewek clubbing yang cuma butuh gandengan keren buat diajak jalan, emang gue tas cewek! Gue nggak suka ucapan 'suka', mungkin gue lebih ngehargain kalau mereka bilang 'sayang'. Tapi yang benar-benar gue tunggu dan gue harapkan adalah kata 'cinta'. "Aku cinta kamu!" Gue terperangah, dan kenapa kata yang gue tunggu itu datang dari seorang gadis cupu yang dianggap freak di sekolah? Biasanya cewek-cewek model begini takut, bahkan mungkin benci dengan cowok tampang preman kayak gue. Mana mungkin nyambung, tampilan gue aja udah sangar. Gue bingung, kok bisa-bisanya dia 'cinta' sama gue, bahkan sekarang berani tatap mata gue dalam, cewek model dia biasanya ciut."Kenapa lu 'cinta' sama gue!"Gue keluarkan pertanyaan jebakan. Biasanya para cewek yang nembak gue akan langsung terbuka kedoknya dengan memuji-muji luar dan dalam gue. Terbukti mereka cuma lihat kelebihan gue. Yang gue harapin bukan pujian, tapi definisi dari cinta itu sendiri."Aku nggak tahu kenapa aku jatuh cinta sama kamu! Walaupun aku berkali-kali nyangkal rasa ini, tapi aku malah semakin sadar dan rasa ini semakin besar. Yang aku tahu, kamu memang orang yang tepat buat aku cintai!" Gue mengamati sosok gadis cupu itu. Dengan seragam dimasukkan, rok dibawah lutut dan rambut yang terus menerus dijepit asal. Kacamata juga tidak pernah lepas dari matanya, dan menurutku hal-hal itulah yang bisa mengurangi kecantikan wanita. Tapi jawabannya itu, itu benar definisi cinta yang gue cari. Kenapa malah dia yang bisa mengerti definisi cinta yang gue tunggu. Bukan pujian, bukan kelebihan, tapi kejujuran tentang perasaan yang memang diluar kuasa kita. Itu cinta, itu benar rasa cinta, bukan suka. Terbawa penasaran, gue setujui buat jadian sama gue, walaupun sebenarnya gue nggak punya perasaan yang sama. Sama teman-teman, buat ngejaga gengsi tentu gue bilang gue cuma cari sensasi jadian sama cewek kayak begitu. Berita jadiannya gue dengan Evia cukup heboh tersebar di sekolah. Gue cuek aja, banyak yang berpendapat gue pingin meningkatkan reputasi dengan mencari sensasi. Gue cukup kaget waktu pertama kali ngapelin Evia, cewek gue. Dia nggak secupu yang gue kira, nggak, dia sama sekali nggak cupu. Ternyata penampilan cupu itu cuma di sekolah aja, di luar dia berdandan selayaknya gadis biasa, manis malah. Kecuali kacamatanya, semua dandanannya waktu mau keluar bareng gue membuat gue pangling. Rambutnya ternyata panjang lurus, selama ini nggak kelihatan karena terus dijepit. Dan model seragam yang mengganggu pemandangan itu sudah diganti dengan baby doll pink cantik dengan jeans panjang. Evia akan lebih manis kalau aja dia mau melepaskan kacamatanya. Sayangnya ia nggak pernah mau, katanya nggak bisa melihat jelas. Sayang sekali dia nggak pakai softlens aja. Gue merasa cukup beruntung jadian sama Evia. Walaupun tampilannya biasa dan cenderung cupu di sekolah, gue nggak harus ribet seperti teman gue yang lain. Evia bukan gadis manja yang suka minta anter jemput kesana-kesini. Dia juga pengertian sama gue, dia bukan tipe cewek yang suka melorotin cowoknya. Dia selalu berusaha membuat gue nyaman kalau bersamanya. Dan gue mulai salut sama usaha dia. Gue akui, gue udah sayang sama dia, karena gue nggak ragu lagi, dia cinta dan sayang banget sama gue. Belakangan ini gue heran, Evia sering kelihatan kusut setiap mau gue antar pulang sekolah. Alasannya sih nabrak orang, minumannya muncrat, kuahnya muncrat, jatuh makanya ada noda tanah. Tapi gue curiga, itu cuma alasan buatan. Masa bisa sesering itu. Diam-diam gue mata-matain dia di sekolah, gue pesan ke teman terdekat dia buat lapor gue kalau ada sesuatu yang aneh. Kata temannya, kayaknya Evia digencet sama genk cewek-cewek yang patah hati sama gue. Gue langsung emosi, tapi gue ingin menangkap basah mereka. Hari itu pun tiba. Setiap istirahat kami memang pisah. Dia sama temannya, gue sama temen gue, kami nggak mau jadi pasangan yang saling ketergantungan. Gue tahu dia cewek yang mandiri dan punya dunianya sendiri, gue hargai kebutuhannya itu seperti juga dia menghargai waktu gue bersama sahabat-sabahat cowok gue. Istirahat itu gue mergokin Risha cs mendekati dia. Ini dia yang gue tunggu, gue kuntitin mereka sampa ke taman belakang sekolah yang sepi, tapi gue tetap dalam persembunyian. Risha mulai beraksi. "Eh elo tuh ya, udah kita bilangin masih ngeyel juga! Refan tuh nggak beneran suka sama lu, dia cuma cari sensasi! Ngaca dong!" Risha berteriak kasar sambil mendorong Evia sampai jatuh terduduk. Gue emang preman, tapi gue nggak suka tingkah pengecut kayak gitu. Itu cuma akan dilakuin sama pecundang yang nggak bisa terima kekalahan, nggak sportif. Gini-gini gue juga hargai sportifitas. "Terus apa urusan kalian!" Hebat, gue nggak nyangka Evia berani menjawab walau tidak beranjak dari duduknya. "Lu tuh bolot ya! Ya lu putusin dia dong! Kita ini terganggu sama kehadiranlu! Dasar nggak tahu diri!" Regina menyiram kepala Evia dengan coca-cola. Evia nggak bisa melawan karena ditahan seabrek-abrek pasukannya. Gue udah nggak tahan pingin nunjukin diri kalau aja gue nggak dengar ucapan pacar gue. "Nggak masalah dia manfaatin gue! Bisa bermanfaat buat dia aja gue udah bersyukur! Daripada ada cewek-cewek lain yang jadian sama dia buat manfaatin dia! Lebih baik gue yang dimanfaatin!" Ucapan Evia itu semakin membakar emosi rivalnya. "Eh elo nyindir kita? Berani lu ngatain kita!" Mereka makin beringas. "STOP! Apa-apaan sih ini! Kalian ngapain cewek gue hah?" Aku akhirnya keluar dari persembunyian. "Beruntung gue nggak terima lu semua, norak tau nggak! Pengecut!" Kataku sadis sambil merangkul Evia. Jujur gue kaget dengan ucapannya tadi. Dia nggak keberatan gue manfaatin, jujur awalnya gue emang nggak serius mau jadian sama dia. Sekarang gue sadar, gue beruntung banget temuin cewek kayak dia dan jadi pacarnya. "Lu sendiri apaan Fan? Muna! Lu cuma cari sensasi doang kan jadian sama dia,lu tegasin dong sama dia biar dia nggak GR!" Risha malah membentakku. Mata Evia berkaca-kaca, aku sadar dia sudah hampir menangis. "Jaga bacotlu! Nggak ada urusannya juga samalu! Lagian kata siapa gue cuma cari sensasi hah?" Risha memutar bola matanya, "Hallah, Endo sendiri yang bilang sama gue! Lu nggak mungkin bohong sama sohiblu itu kan!" Sial, itu kelemahan sohib-sohib gue, mereka nggak bisa jaga rahasia. Itu kan cuma buat jaga gengsi gue, sekarang gengsi itu sudah nggak penting. "Kalo gue emang bohong, lu mau apa? Kalo gue beneran suka sama Evia lu mau apa?" Gue maju menantangnya. Lalu gue mengacungkan telunjuk di depan hidungnya dengan wajah semarah mungkin. "Jangan pernah lagi lu ikut campur urusan gue, apalagi sakitin pacar gue kayak gini! Sekali gue tau lu giniin cewek gue, gue pastiin nggak bakal ada lagi yang mau jadi pacarlu! Biar lu jadi perawan tua!" Gue menatapi tajam gadis-gadis lain yang bersekongkol dengannya. "Itu juga berlaku buat kalian! Sekarang bubar, atau gue laporin kalian ke kepala sekolah!" Ancam gue. Mereka ciut dan bubar. Gue beralih menatap Evia yang masih shock, matanya masih berkaca-kaca."Kamu kenapa nggak lapor hal ini sama aku? Kamu nggak anggap aku sebagai cowok kamu?" Tanya gue kesal padanya. Gue nggak suka dia berkorban memendam ini sendiri. "Aku pikir selama aku masih bisa ngatasin sendiri, aku nggak mau ngerepotin kamu! Lagipula aku takut...kamu akan putusin aku kalau tahu tentang ini!" Evia berkata dengan suara bergetar. Gue terharu dengan kenyataan ini. Ternyata selama ini Evia sengaja pendam sendiri karena nggak ingin gue repot, dia bahkan nggak masalah kalaupun gue benar-benar cuma memanfaatkan dia. "Ya nggak lah! Kamu boleh cerita apapun ke aku, cerita kesulitan kamu, apa aja deh, itu kalo kamu anggap aku sebagai cowok kamu!" "Selama ini aku udah banyak ngerepotin kamu, aku nggak enak Fan! Aku juga tahu sebenarnya aku nggak pantas jadi pacar kamu, bisa jadian sama kamu aja aku udah bersyukur! Walaupun misalnya yang mereka bilang itu benar aku ikhlas, yang penting selama kamu masih butuh aku, aku akan tetap ada bersama kamu..." Evia terus berceloteh, membuat gue spontan memeluknya. "Kamu ngomong apa sih? Kamu percaya sama omongan mereka itu?" Gue sedih mendengar perkataannya. Ternyata Evia menganggap selama ini gue nggak benar-benar cinta padanya. Oke, awalnya memang iya, ternyata ia sadar, tapi...apa harus gue jelaskan? Gue menghela nafas. "Aku suka, cinta, sayang sama kamu Vi! Seperti apapun kamu! Awalnya aku emang cuma penasaran dengan keunikan kamu, tapi lama-lama...aku juga nggak bisa nyangkal perasaan ini Vi!" Ungkap gue jujur. Gue melepaskan pelukan dan menatap matanya dalam, "Aku serius udah jatuh cinta sama kamu! Sekarang tolong jangan berlagak kayak orang lain lagi denganku! Aku ini cowok kamu dan selalu anggap kamu sebagai cewek aku! Kalau ada kejadian kayak gini kamu harus cerita, tentu aja aku nggak akan ngerasa direpotin, aku justru bakal merasa dihargai!" Evia akhirnya menumpahkan air mata yang selama ini betah menggenangi bola matanya. "Aku kira selama ini kamu...kamu beneran nggak suka sama aku! Kamu..." Ia seperti tidak menyangka.Gue nggak menyangka dia menyadari niat awal gue. Bahkan selama ini walau dia menganggap gue nggak serius menyukainya, dia tetap berbaik hati sama gue. Dia bahkan ikhlas kalaupun benar-benar gue manfaatin. "Kamu kenapa nembak aku kalau yakin aku nggak cinta sama kamu?" Tanya gue suatu hari waktu kami makan berdua di kafe. "Aku cuma pingin jadi sebuah nama yang tercatat di hidup kamu, di kenangan kamu. Walaupun misalnya menurut kamu aku nggak berharga, setidaknya aku pernah mengisi dan bermanfaat di hidup kamu!" Begitu alasannya. Evia, apa sih yang ada di pikirannya. Gue heran ada aja cewek kayak gini. "Tapi aku senang banget ternyata kamu sekarang suka beneran sama aku!" "Aku suka brownies, suka sama warna biru, suka sama film horor, suka usil!" Gue mencoba menyadarkannya arti 'suka'. "Oke, sayang!" Ralatnya. "Aku sayang sama piaraanku, si Boncil, aku sayang sama adikku, aku sayang sama adik sepupuku, aku sayang sama anak tetanggaku!" Gue kesal dia belum menjumpai kata yang tepat. "Iya iya! Cinta!" Evia akhirnya sadar."Nah gitu dong!" Gue tersenyum mencomot pangsit udangnya. Dia menepuk tangan usil gue. "Ngomong-ngomong, thanks ya softlensnya!" Evia tersenyum senang, menunjukkan kotak yang gue belikan untuknya.

Today's cute quote


LOVE?
for me,
LOVE is FRIENDSHIP on fire
cause you can't love someone that completely stranger
and love grows in a friendship line .

betrayed


move on


Dear , you
I LOVE YOU

so simple

so true

and..

so painful

sometimes


i miss you , right now
And Now i wish
i'd Stayed
Cause i'm Lonely
and i'm Tired
i'm Missing You again
Oh No..

Once Again...

dear god - avenged sevenfold

girls,read this :)
Men hate to cry, they rarely ever do. But, when a man cries over you, you know he loves you. Because men only cry when they lost something or are afraid of losing something that they love as much or more than themselves

i don't mind being trapped in his life forever











i HATE korean . i swear it does . especially for the guys . THEY ARE SOOOO DAMN GAY
but , an EXCEPTION for this GUY




Kim Jaejoong (born January 26, 1986), better known by his stage names, Hero, Youngwoong Jaejoong (in South Korea) and Jejung (ジェジュン, Jejun) (in Japan), is a Korean singer-songwriter, composer and occasional actor. He is a member and lead vocal of South Korean boy band TVXQ, known as Dong Bang Shin Ki in South Korea and Tohoshinki in Japan.

Hero
Birth name Han Jaejoon
Also known as 영웅재중, 英雄在中 (Youngwoong Jaejoong) , ジェジュン (Jejung)
Born January 26, 1986 (1986-01-26) (age 24), Gongju,Chungcheongnam-do,South Korea
Genres Pop, R&B
Occupations Singer, dancer, actor, composer, songwriter, model
Years active 2003-present
Labels SM Entertainment, Rhythm Zone
Associated acts SM Town, TVXQ
Notable instruments
Vocals
Birth name
Hangul 한재준
Hanja 韓在俊
Revised Romanization Han Jae-jung
McCune–Reischauer Han Chaejung
Stage name
Hangul 김재중
Hanja 金在中
Revised Romanization Gim Jae-jung
McCune–Reischauer Kim Chaejung

this song express my heart right now
"Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or neither been
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go


I never had a dream come true
Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time
Amd tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or neither been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
You'll always be the one I know
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no"

S club 7 - never had a dream come true

don't call my name , don't call my name , ALEJANDRO

Don't call my name.
Don't call my name, Alejandro.
I'm not your babe.
I'm not your babe, Fernando.

Don't wanna kiss, don't wanna touch.
Just smoke one cigarette and hush.
Don't call my name.
Don't call my name, Roberto.

THAT SONG FREAKING STUCK IN MY HEAD
and to be freaking honest , im one from her million fans

why?
because SHE IS FREAK ! hahahaha
no i'm not kidding , she is FREAK
just like katy parry . oh i love them both
but what i wanna say today is LADY GAGA'S BOY SIDE
known as JO CALDERONE
AWWW HE'S SO HOT (teehee)
too bad (s)he is a GIRL =_=


hot! isn't (s)he? ;)

be patient , my friend :)
to, someone out there
dear friend
ACTUALLY i really KNOW what happen to you
don't be sad,baby
i know he's worth fighting for,
but i guess you should stop it for your own good
be patient , have faith , restart ! :D
good luck ;)

from, your oh-my-gawt-we-are-exactly-the-same friend ,
crz.

DO EPIC SHIT
urm...
hell-o...
so, this is my first post
well , i dunno what to write here so...

oh crap !
really...
I DO NOT KNOW WHAT SHOULD I WRITE

okay, got an idea
gonna tell you why i make this shit
i'm RADITYA DIKA's biggest fans
he a famous blogger
so maybe thats the reason why i start blog-ing :)

thats it . im blank . lol
ttyl :]